It is the craziest thing, you might think, for I can hardly believe it myself! Isn't it supposed to be convenient to not reluctantly study.Sure, but you forget to chill or unwind. It's almost like OCD, but at a lower level. It DOES effect my daily life, for I do not prefer to overlook everything else, thus later on I realise I have to catch up on Tae Kwon Do or vocals or anything! Or pizza! I wish my mind wouldn't despise me so much.
However, as minutes and hours and days and weeks pass by, I realize that it actually might be a "gift" , for one day , on Halloween, there were fireworks and they spelled out " YOUR MIND AND HABIT OF RESEARCH IS A GIFT!!!!", because that's how you know you are passionate about something! No not really. On day I woke up in the morning thinking about surfing the web to see the process of the Carbon cycle, and how that works.One leads to the next and to the next. Unfortunately, I had a fear of being judged. Fortunately, that departed.
When a teacher tells me that, and never to stop analysing various things, such as proving there is starch in corn starch, it makes me feel like I should never stop. Then another time when my instructor at Tae Kwon Do says I will be driving in a Porshe one day after answering a few questions about lifestyle that I had researched on my own. Consequently, I started to read and research during my past-time.
I still have to work on making sure I get to do all the things I am passionate about, without neglecting anyone. In the meantime, I will enjoy my charisma.